this is actually my entry for jul 14. J I got home at 12:45 yesterday morning, plus MG and mine slept over at my house, so I’m only updating my blog now. I was absent again today, because I have fever due to my inflamed ears. (again) makulit kase kong bata, mahilig magkalikot ng ears even if my dad told me a couple of times that one of his guards dies because of that. I practically slept the whole day so I’m a vampire once again.

it was our gen meet last Thursday night. I watched a movie before going to the store. I watched “if only”. being the crybaby that I am, of course I cried quite a lot of times. I just love the dialogues uttered by sam and ian. sam – during the 1^st part when she’s being taken for granted by ian. ian – during the 2^nd part when everything that happens just bring him to tears cause he knows that by the end of the day, sam will die. like – when sam asked ian if death ends love, tapos cry si ian. yung sinabi ni cab driver na “Appreciate her, what you have, just love her.”, yung sinabi ni sam na, “I don’t wanna be adored, I wanna be loved.” also when ian was reading sam’s diaryafter she was killed and what’s written was, “they say there’s one in a relationship who loves more. God, I wish it wasn’t me.” also ian’s entire speech infront of the resto before they boarded the taxi. basta marami! I wish it were subtitled nga eh! lol. I would’ve memorized a lot! ian is so incredible during the 2^nd half of the movie, he really should be thankful he was given another day to show sam how much he loves her and he made the most out of it. he was so sweet. grabe the twist! I went “oh my god!” when I saw that cab driver again. don’t wanna ruin it for you guys. watch this movie if you wanna have a good cry. the music was great too. I love the chorus of love will show you everything -> “I love you. you love me. just take the gift and don’t ask why.” it’s my favorite song right now!! tapos that other song she sang at the bar in the end.

I made a major discover while watching “if only”. yami and I were texting, she’s like, “ei ken, este, te bern…” hmmm…this girl must know something to tease me to ken like that. I asked her what ken told her last Sunday kase sabi niya na-miss nga raw ako nun. reply ni yami -> “like ka raw niya, pero he’s in between u know…secret lang namin yan…hala bad ko no…buking ko siya…mabait ka daw kase…” anong kinalaman ni uknow??? wehehe…joke. mabait daw ako, di niya alam napakamaldita ko. lol. in between? WTH. I recall him saying before that he like sthis girl but he compared the girl and him to his thumb and hintuturo. was he referring to me then? according to ryza jie, he might be intimated or because he knows that I like wald. he knows wald and I cant happen so yeah, he might be intimated. ryza jie thinks that my being from UP has something to do with it. based on her story, (she’s also from UP) totoo pala yun. that sucks. quoting ryza jie, “y cant he understand that it really doesn’t matter?”

ken really brought me jogging pants. but stupid stupid me brought the pants I use for yoga. actually parang reserve lang yun in case he forgets, eh he was so matagal kaya I just put mine on na. when I saw him, sabi niya, “bern, may dala ko.” he looked hurt. I’m so bad. ate sol ended up using the jogging pants he brought. basta parang bad mood siya, when I asked him, he said, sobrang nangangamote na raw siya sa school. prelims na nila next week but he has no time to study at all. he might not attend nga raw their acquaintance party kase malamang may work siya nun. I actually admire him kase he’s young pa but it’s as if he’s gone through a lot already. I mean, he goes to school, he has a job and he even has a band. there’s so much going on in his life. it’s like he grew up so fast unlike me who’s only experiencing these kind of things now.

I was OK pa when I left the house but in the middle of the gen meet, I started to feel really bad. My ears hurt kase and sobrang init ko na. During our game, I performed well naman but k’ jocel noticed I wasn’t talking. eh di I look gloomy na, here comes ken looking all thoughtful, he felt my face, forehead and neck, I was burning up nga so he told me na was na raw ako pumasok bukas. sabay kame naglalakad eh itong si yami, tinukso kame tapos si Mg tumabi saken kaya nauna na si ken. I heard him call me and say something but I didn’t understand, I was too tired to ask again. when we were at the parking lot, while everyone’s taking pictures, I sat and changed my shoes into slippers. hehe. yup, I did that in public. I didn’t care about anything else, my feet hurt. nilapitan na naman ako ni ken telling me again not to pasok na tomorrow. I was insisting na kaya ko pa. (But obviously, di ko kinaya.) Tapos nung naglalakad na kame papuntang sakayan, he walked with me, inakbayan niya ko and I heard him say that I’m special to him. tapos when we boarded the bus na, we were waving dun sa mga naiwan. it was funny cause instead of wavingm, kean was kind of reaching for me. it was really funny! hehe. yan lan naalala ko kase nagdidiliryo na ata ako ng mga panahong yun. ay wait, pinansin pala ko ni dags! he said, kase malaki raw yung bag ko mas maliit na nga yun, “naglayas ka?” lol.

kasabay namin sina k’ jr and a’ nina pauwi. same way din pala sila. k’ jr, mine, mg and I went jaywalking sa sandigan! lol. ang kulit ni k’ jr! MG and mine slept over at my house. it was supposed to be just MG but sumama na rin si mine. we watched “my boyfriend is type b” before sleeping. ooops, actually, tinulugan ko pala sila. lol. sorry, I was too sleepy! plus…I was sick!

I saw a pic of Kangdoo na. He’s so not gorgeous. He looks older than his age of 26! Hello?!? Jo Hansun shouldve been in that spot instead! Lol. Still bitter?